hmmmm.

"I am quite offended by you and your friend ******. I know that you refer to females as "bitches" jokingly but the fact is the discourse around women has REAL ramifications that translate into abuse on the female body. I feel that if we claim to be progressive we really really need to combat that type of discourse in our DAILY lives. If we keep talking about how much the world has to change, how much domestic violence needs to stop, etc etc. but aren't working on an individual level to reshape the discourse around women how is anything ever going to change? "

shave or wax? just get rid of it.

as i watched the presidential news conference today, i was overcome with the desire to throw the brand new flat screen tv my roommates gave me for my birthday out the window. seriously, are you kidding me? no. seriously?

why i vote democrat (and why you should, too)

1) the most educated people in the country tend to vote democrat (what does that mean? i don't know).

2) i am a young, relatively poor, working, minority, college student (basically im not a rich, white male).

3) when some people are oppressed, nobody's free (i know).

4) come on, a war? in iraq?

5) more people are adversely affected by republican reforms than democratic ones (and the ones who are hurt are already hurtin, dog).

6) i don't like the idea of manipulating people, especially by pushing connections, religion or fear.

7) LESS shady shit, LESS lies.

and more (but my brain is starting to ache).

i can't be too mad at Bush for the exact reasons why he bugs me. there is no chance he is the mastermind of the deception. but the fact that Republicans can succeed with him as their spokesman truly scares me (even more than The Sixth Sense, but in a different, worse way).

not even close[r]

natalie portman's character: Is it because she's successful?

jude law's character: It's because she doesn't need me.

and i say, i get it jude. i really, really get it. so in the end we're both alone, right?

yall ladies right. i am an asshole.

i yelled at my grandma the other day because:

1) i feel guilty that she does my laundry. especially when she tells me its not a big deal- that she's up at six o'clock in the morning anyway. especially when i'm sitting on my ass watching The Inferno.

2) i dont want my grandma to get old. i want her to live forever.

nursing = corporate job (with tagalog subtitles)

it was the allure of finally having direction that got me. tricky bastard.

i heart my friends (even more than natalie loves baby seals)

amy: so, natalie, what would you rather do: set an acre of tropical rainforest on fire or pour oil on three baby seals?

(long pause)

natalie: can the animals in the forest run away from the fire?

amy: no. there are men with clubs at the perimeter.

(long pause)

natalie: its too hard.

cause E.R. used to be that good

yes. im excited about the future for the first time since school had recess. im going to be a nurse. yes ma, you heard right- NURSING! a tangible profession. ive never really considered it before, mostly because its the filipino band aid for uncertainty, but now i think i can do it. right? yeah. a psyche nurse. 3 more years of school and cereal twice a day plus the added bonus of student loan repayments.

UCLA= time to think about going to a j.c.

interior design- you still have my heart. not enough? well, ill buy you an 800 thread count duvet in a couple of years. relax.

so, don't judge me

i acknowledge that i am 22, on the eve of my graduation into the working adult world and am now starting a blog. im over it. this shit is cathartic, right? yes, a point of reference for the future as my horrible memory continues to fail me.

today (alann, stab yourself in the eye with a rusty nail if you ever slip into daily-recap mode) i jacked off*, watched oprah, read a non-school related book finally deciding i should get out of bed. Then my roommate comes home to tell me that today he got to hold a still-beating human heart as he sat in on a surgery that would save the life of a 24 year old mother of three. And i thought, yes, the world is fair.

fuck, what's the date today?

here goes.



* prayed